Nightmare
Last night, I dreamt I was at a war infested area. Some military personnel entered my room and decided Mister Toto was wasting resources. Hence, they promptly shot him at the belly. I burst into tears and used my hands to try to curb all the blood from spurting out. Then I attempted to carry him (although in real life, I might have some difficulties) amidst my clouded vision of tears to look for a vet, despite friends and families telling me it was hazardous and futile in the gunfire outside.
Retrospectively, as I narrated my nightmare now, I observe the relevance of the dream to my concerns I had when my professor was trying to persuade me in the phone call yesterday to work in Hong Kong. Although he kept insisting he would respect my decision if I go into the industry, he spent an hour psyching on how an academic career can be paved with my move, etc.
I voiced my factor of apprehension as family, when truthfully (and many would say stupidly), I am really sad about leaving Mister Toto alone. If I were to articulate this concern to anybody, I bet they would probably roll their eyes and go 'He is just a dog, for god's sake!'
Some can be callous and cold-hearted. But I don't think I am up to it.
Retrospectively, as I narrated my nightmare now, I observe the relevance of the dream to my concerns I had when my professor was trying to persuade me in the phone call yesterday to work in Hong Kong. Although he kept insisting he would respect my decision if I go into the industry, he spent an hour psyching on how an academic career can be paved with my move, etc.
I voiced my factor of apprehension as family, when truthfully (and many would say stupidly), I am really sad about leaving Mister Toto alone. If I were to articulate this concern to anybody, I bet they would probably roll their eyes and go 'He is just a dog, for god's sake!'
Some can be callous and cold-hearted. But I don't think I am up to it.
posted by jellybeano at 8:59 AM
6 Comments:
you treat toto like family, which is why you can't bear to go overseas without him. though i have never had a pet before, there are a lot of things here that i do not wish to leave behind, so i can comprehend how you feel.
but is this opportunity a good move for you in your career or it's just so so? perhaps you want to think it through.
normally dream is reflection of your subconcious mind.. and in your case, it really is.
stay stay! there's a lot of other things that u should stay for! haha.. =p
Yup yup, guess he's family to you too. He's not a silly reason to want to stay. :)
I do think too, that when you are ready to venture out, you'll feel excited and will want to do it without anyone persuading you. Maybe it's not time yet.
yeah, i have been to usa to stay for half a year. But recently I think he's getting old. I am trying to negotiate for a shorter stay in HK. HK isn't the most delightful place for me to go perhaps. The place and position itself isn't very attractive sufficiently to justify leaving home, I guess.
Anyway, Jane, just exactly what is the OTHER things I am supposed to stay for? You blaming me for your 'weight increase' huh? Haaa.
How long your prof wants you to stay in HK? You can consider 3 months or less... if you really can't let go of things here lah.
For me I won't request you to stay or leave lah, as long as it's the best path for you to take. So think over carefully what you want in your career lor.
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